Evan+Morris

My name is Evan and I'm 14 years old. My hobbies include: Swimming, Jogging/Running, Video Games, listening TV, You Tube,and playing with my LEGO jets. I am currently going to I-Poly High School. I have a secret crush on a girl from East House. The girl 's name is Griselda Solis and she is really beautiful. I have one 11 year brother and one 6 year old sister in my family. After school, I just get a ride home and then I do my homework. Whatever time is left I just watch TV or play with my Gameboy SP. I also have an interest in the paranormal as well. I study the following paranormal phenomena: Area 51, Government Knowledge, UFO's, Aliens, Ghosts, Poltergeists, Bigfoot, Yeti, Loch Ness Monster, Skunk Ape, Mothman, and Chupacabra. On the weekends, I watch Saturday morning cartoons and I am currently entering a sweepstakes to win $4,000. I waited for a couple of months and I didn't get any money, but it was fun entering that contest anyway. But right now, I just care on turning in assignments on time in my school classes. To me, I don't really have time to slack off at school or at home. I just work until 10:30 p.m. then I go to sleep for the night. This is always my schedule that I go by every school week. My current grades are 2 P's, 1 AP, and 1 CR. My mom is really mad at me right now with these grades and I feel that I should tell her to stop expecting me to many good reports. She has been giving me threats that if I don't change these grades in a month, she will either send me to the cops or put me in the streets because I'm a loser. I have been thinking of a plan to run away from home and find somewhere else to live at. If this really happens, I will be ready to face my hardships out in those dark, cold streets in the city. I now fear that my days are numbering meaning that I don't have that much time left to be here with a family. When I go out there by myself, I will change my life style completely. I will change my name and live a secret life for the time I'll be on the streets. Then again, I should try and escape California and get a job at some other state. I am glad that at least God will protect me on my journey living on the outside world. (Note, that what I said about my grades and the threat of living in the streets is real and not fake!) With Christmas around the corner, I feel really depressed about myself and I don't know what to do now since my grades are a failure. I've also noticed that whatever grade I get good or bad my mom will still make a big deal out of it. Then she still yells at me. I now know that if I can't commit suicide, I would (like I said before, run away from home and never come back.) At I-Poly "Night at the Red Carpet" is at December 18 in the Cal-Poly Pomona Campus Building. I don't want to go to that event, but it's required that I go anyway. They say that they'll give out awards to certain projects that us I-Poly students do at home and/or with other students in a group. I'm know it's obvious I'm not going to win any awards so I'm already waisting my time at the awards show anyway just clapping and cheering for other nominees and winners. So far, I still feel suicidal and depressed and all down. I am going to have a crappy Christmas this year and the worst part is that I won't get any presents this year either. I wish I never survived that brain surgery at all. Besides I would've been happy with living in heaven with God